I wished i told you that something wrong is gonna happen... something doesn't feel normal... it seemed like you are never gonna understand it or is it that i'm insane for thinking such thing??? You would say nothing is wrong... but why am i feeling this way if everything is going good??? Why am i always questioning our relationship??? Why its hurting??? Why the tears are not stop flowing???...

Why did God let fall for it in the first place... It makes me wonder... Does d life really worth for all the pain??? or its like trying to find a needle in a hay stack?? Why does its got by some people who don't deserve it... Those who try are given the scraps... & Treated like nothing... Love is d most dangerous thing aint it???...

I have heard - "To forgive is to forget.." I forgave u..but cant forget the pain.. Im learning to live with it.. Getting over something is not that easy...

Here im, wit d memories about us again.

All i know now is that i’ve grew a lot since then you left me. I dont wanna admit myself all d drama & all d attention back now. I loved it.But i luvd it @ d begning wen i was not worried of d consequences tat comes later. i always luvd d way u made me 2 feel. Im amazed how u always made me fly in clouds & 4 d moments i believed tat things cud b different.

Things hav changed now. now i'm wishing so many times tat i cud 4get u, but tat never gonna happen I think..u are always on my mind, it seems, bcoz even small things triggers my mind about u. im tryin 2 push it away, instead of dealing with it.

i suppose i shud start learn 2 understand my own emotions.. & there r lot of it & its all ur fault...
damn... i don’t even know whyd hell i’m writing this. It s not like u will never know wat i thinking bcoz im a photocopy memory of yours, if anything happened. i see u and tell wat u feel. & i know things will never b d same between us.

but d thing s, its not over. im realizin that its not yet over & never going to be over... jezzz.. save me plz... may b i shud hav dealt wit it better than i did it b4. but i couldn't, & now things hav bcom much more messy. it wud never go away; it cant b forgotten...

What do you mean by that?Explain me...Are you being vague??Are you gauging my thoughts??? orIs it just because you are elder and don't know any better yet?